A look back at my 2020
2020 was a crazy year. I managed to live through a Pandemic, which meant learning how to organize my life while social distancing.
In 2020 I launched a song at the beginning of the year, got a job before the pandemic started, learned about the wonders of tik tok, created a youtube channel, started working from home, attended parties through zoom, (including my sister’s wedding) went through a phase where I wanted to learn how to make sourdough startedr and in consequence, bread, pizza, and other recipes. It was actually very therapeutic. I also learned that in order to get fit I just needed Youtube, a mat and the discipline for it. Discipline is a tricky thing, you think you got it figured out until you stop, get too arrogant and comfortable and eventually lose your progress and your will to do it. I will eventually get back to the rythm I used to have, but I need a plan of action that will help me not quit.
2020 is also the year where I started working on marketing at a new company. I was scared every single day because I felt like I didn’t know what I was doing. The imposter syndrome kicked in every once in a while until I decided on august that my goal would be to save as much as possible until December, and then when that month arrived, I would decide what I would do, whether that meant quitting my job, continuing it, starting sideways projects, planning a sabbatical, etc. Having this goal helped me think of what was the purpose of me working there.
Questions when feeling lost:
- Why am I doing this? It gives perspective to your present.
2. What is my end goal? It gives hope to your future.
3. What is the worst that can happen? It helps you prepare for the negative.
4. What have I learned so far? It gives you feedback on your past.
Some of my Answers:
- I’m doing it because I need the money and the experience. I also want to prove myself I’m capable of doing it.
- My end goal is to save as much money as posible up until December.
- The worst that can happen is to be fired. If that happens, I will just look for another job. It’s not such a big deal.
- I’ve learned that in the end, I always manage to fix the problem and my boss seems happy with my work.
December has come, and there’s just a week left for 2021 to arrive. The reason why I’m writing this is because I want to improve, be the best version of myself, and to do that, I need to give myself the time for introspection, make myself accountable. It might sound very cliché that we start giving ourselves goals at the end of december to accomplish the next year, but I just do it now because I have the time to reflect on it. The most important part is to start, it doesn’t matter when in the year, it doesn’t matter it it sucks at first, what matters is that you start.
I am grateful today for having a supportive family and friends, a roof over my head, health, energy and the perfect age to start making a change.
Just like Marcus Aurelius, and many stoics before him, I want to analyze my life to understand why I do what I do. So this will be a space to organize my thoughts and fulfil my desire for personal growth.
2021 is where things will change, and if you want to be part of the journey feel free to stay.
Thank you.
